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IMDB rating: 4.90 Plot: Character actors Stephen Dorff and Bob Hoskins star in the crime thriller DEN OF LIONS. Hoskins plays Darius Paskevic, leader of an arm of the ruthless Russian mob in Budapest. Mike Varga (Dorff) ingratiates himself into Darius’s inner circle, eventually becoming the gangster’s favorite prodigy and lover to his beautiful daughter Katya. But what Darius doesn’t suspect, and what puts Mike in grave danger, is that his new golden boy is in fact an undercover government agent. DEN OF LIONS is like an international version of DONNIE BRASCO. |
i find Den of Lions DVD version and download
Actors: Dorff Stephen,Hoskins Bob,Hart Ian,O’Hara David,Gyabronka Jozsef,McCulloch Andrew,Madoc Philip,Szatmari Attila,Massad Nabil,Willox Robert,Thriller,
I feel…depressed. Lifeless. Empty?
Soo..this is definetely weird for me. I never thought I’d be the one making a post like this but especially lately, I’ve been feeling depressed. It all started last year..I went from the small, comfortable middle school where I knew everybody and I got good grades. I graduated number 3 and I just loved my friends. Then, when I entered highschool, I felt like I was thrown into the lion’s den. I hardly ever saw the people that were my actual good friends. I’ve had many acquaintances in the past and they always come and go but I always had a select few who stuck. I also have encountered people who are just reckless and have the perfect "I don’t give a f*ck" attitude. The older guys were just losers who were bored and were very openly critical, thinking their the hottest things ever when they’re just plain ugly. I just felt so out of place and so distant from my old friends. I soon began to became depressed where throughout the whole entire day, I would feel extremely tired and just unable to communicate with people. Last year, I become really self-conscious and I felt so unwanted by everyone/anyone. I pretty much felt like a piece of crap and everything just went downhill. I was falling and I couldn’t catch myself. It was a feeling I’ve never experienced before and my life was dying, piece by piece right before my eyes. I was only half of what I use to be and now this year, the feelings have entered once again, even stronger than before. I can honestly say I don’t give a sh*t about ANYTHING anymore. Nothing..my grades are totally slipping and I don’t care. I know on the inside I’m telling myself, "wth is wrong with you? get off your ass and do some work." I hardly have done my homework at all this year so far. I know deep down I do care and I WANT to care soo bad but my initial reaction to school is just "F*ck this stupid sh*t." I don’t want to correct my mistakes because I don’t want to visit the realization. The realization of that I am completely failing at life and doing everything I told myself I WOULDN’T be doing plus more. The only thing I’m not doing wrong is getting involved in drugs which I’m too emotionless and dead to even think about doing. I feel completely lifeless and tired. Recently, I’ve felt especially empty..I’m never depressed. Just empty…Today was not even joking, this was my worst day in a really long time.Let’s just say I felt like skipping(first time ever here people, just to let you know. I went with my instinct) and the g*d damn lady snitched me to my school. My school found out and when I came back..blehhh. It was just horrible, never been so ashamed in my whole life. Pretty much, I can’t deal with getting yelled or even scolded at. I feel embrassed enough when the teacher tells me to stop talking in the middle of class but then everyone found out I skipped the first two periods? I just couldn’t handle it so what I did for lunch was just go into the bathroom and sulk. I don’t cry anymore..I’m done with crying and tears. I’ve done that too much last year. What I’m pretty much telling you is that I’m so done with these emotions that I really don’t have them anymore and I don’t care about anything. Friends, family, school…I really just want to stay in my room all day to the leisure of my own comfy bed. I wanna sleep my high school years away. My parents also don’t help at all..They just see me as the bratty teen and doesn’t motivate me at all. They don’t really step in on anything and for all you know, I could be doing drugs and getting stoned out my mind everyday. Only then would they probably do something. Just trust me on this..I love them and they’re good people but..they’re not exactly the parents that push their kids to the best of what they can be. They just expect their kids to be hard workers and have drive. I don’t have that..I never really had but this year and last year, it all dried up and disappeared. Pretty much I’m just asking…am I depressed? Is there anyway I can talk to a therapist or someone along those lines..privately and secretly though? The last thing I need is for everyone to know..
If you go to see your local doctor you can talk with them about your feelings. Doctors have to keep anything you say confidential. I think you will feel a lot better with yourself if you just talk to someone about this. If they are unable to help then you can ask them to refer you to a specialist. Good luck
smurfette | Feb 07, 2010